Did you know you can get postpartum depression up to a year after giving birth?
Yeah, me either. And apparently it’s common, especially after having a multiple birth.
These last few weeks have been pretty blah. Even after the Captain and I have solved our issues from January, my state of mind is jostling between anxious/nervous for no reason, and depressed/sad for no reason. I start to feel like there’s something vital that I need to be doing or saying, but I can’t put my finger on it, and I get that “oh shit, you forgot something important!” feeling. You know that recurring dream where you suddenly remember that you should be in class, only the semester is half over and you haven’t been in class the whole time? That feeling. Slightly elevated heart rate, jittery, tight feeling in my chest. Then the next minute, I’m in tears over a story I saw on Facebook, or a random thought that popped in my head. I’m a bit of a cryer at movies, but crying 4-5 times in the last week is unusual for me.
My doc gave me the option to talk to a counselor along with or instead of drugs, but… I honestly don’t think that’d help. I don’t have any serious issues going on right now, certainly not anything that should make me so anxious and keep me up at night, when the boys are finally sleeping for 11 hours a stretch. I mean, really. I should be enjoying sleep right now. So Wellbutrin it is, if only for a few months. I’m pretty iffy about drugs, but when things are legitimately chemically off, I guess there’s not much else to do. And Wellbutrin at least has the potential side effects of weight loss and increased libido, so weeeeeee. And it’s easier to ween off of.
I will say, though, it’s nice to have a doctor walk in and start raving about your weight loss. I feel like I’m all stalled out, but she was really impressed. I was particularly face-bloated while pregnant, so I’m sure that has something to do with her perception! But she said a paleo diet is a great idea, and if I keep at it, I shouldn’t be surprised if I get pregnant again, because healthy weight loss leads to increased fertility. THANKS DOC. I don’t even want to think about that.
But I digress. Hopefully this will be eye-opening for someone, because I thought PPD was something that happened within the first 4 months or so, not 10 months.